life that i missed out.

being a young mother is challenging enough. now when it comes to work, the passion isn't there anymore. what shall i do?

Hanin: how old are you?

Me: i am 22 years old. why?

Hanin: when is the last time you had holiday?

Me: (thinking) i dont think i have a proper one ever since in starbucks for 4 years.

Hanin: go and have a nice holiday with your family.

the conversation i had with hanin open my eyes. i think i am too exhausted with life till i forgot on what does it feel to have a proper holiday which i need one so badly.working is good but a workaholic till you are so tired, that's not good!

Short temper. 

I am being hot temper day by day. It seems like im getting so furious now. Oh god, i miss my old happy izzy. Its not that i want to be a hot tempered person! It has never been this way. Ya allah, kau berikanlah aku kesabaran yang tinggi ya allah. Seperti mana rasulmu muhammad saw. Aku tidak ingin menjadi seperti orang yang hilang arah, Yang hanya mengularkan kata-kata keji kepada orang lain.

a random thing where i just thought about

Introducing my STARBUCKS VIVA HOME family.

start with..

IRENE : a funny yet over with everything aka DEWA. She's loud but not mean.

DEV: i call him devdas. He is sort of the oldest here but he is a bit nerdy but funny.

SYARIF: people call him 'hero gadis-gadis' a guy with everything nak marah. a prankster. he call himself abang long segambut. he jaga hartamas one. :p

FATHIL: he is a incredible artist. drawing that makes u amaze. but hey, he is not just good in drawing but very spontaneous in kutuk orang too. BIP SUM. wth! haha!

AZRUL: he is the artist aka pelakon here. we call him that. such a sweet talker. u need to see to believe.

SARAH: a cute person with a low self esteem. i thing because of the boys always call her name even its a joking term. pity her.

AZRAEI: he is the kaki kena complain one. pity him. but deep inside, he is a cool person though. fun to chat with at least.

CHIN: we call her the pet. ahahahahah!! she's super loud and at times like auntie2 but never admit it.

SURAYA: a fascinating girl. she reminds me of meringue. hard on the outside and soft in the inside.

well, we have very little partners i shall say but its a happy 

Ci debab mama.

Song for NURUL AUNI NAYLI  

Ya allah, Berikanlah aku,

 Anak yang berhati mulia, 

Semoga kami berbahagia, 

 Bila kami ada di sana.

 Ya allah,

 Dialah puteri, 

Yang bisa bahagiakan kami,

 Senyumnya menambat hatiku

, Dirinya penawar dukaku. 

Syukur ya allah, 

Kurnian yang diberi tiada tandingan, 

Raut wajah manis, 

Senyumnya menusuk,

 Letih lesu terus hilang.

Cant sleep and talk crap 

Its like 4.07am but still cant sleep but my sayang is snoring beside me wth! Haha!

Ive learned something interesting bout someone i shall say reminds me of my young age (too old meh??) haha! I shall say that she is a fascinating girl i've met and would like to say this to her

 Dear S, You should never give up in life! Ive told u that something good is waiting for u! Be strong and live life to the fullest! U suffered a lot so put a FULL STOP and its time for u tO shine  let your past ends there and treasure your future and appreciate what u got in the present. Its a gift for u so no point to be sad anymore. U have him to make u smile. U have your darlings friends and family (starbucks family and your own family)isnt it enough? U dont need your ex-bf!! And guess what, they dont have a blast as u do now! We all are happy people and lots of people are envious of u! Belajar pun tak habis sibuk nak sekolahkan orang? Funny kan? So cheer up! Be a adorable person and not a meanie that brings u no where!

 -stop the motivation-

Well, talk about my dearest nurul auni nayli. If u are wondering, 

NURUL = cahaya 

AUNI = ketenanganku

NAYLI = pencapaianku 

Why i name her this is so can find the uniqueness And frankly speaking she's our adorable achievement  Mama sayang ci debab ni! 

 -the end-

 P/s: blogging with iphone for the first time 

the happy starting point

it has been a year since i last updated. well this is actually my belated anniversary event but this year we celebrate together as a family because we have a new member on board. Nurul Auni Nayli the princess that captures my heart and we are now a proud parents of a daughter for now. she's adorable yet mischievous look. she's 1 month and 21 days now but hey, u should see her because she is what i call my chubby princess.